Guess my tits are going to be even more scarred. Bathing suit season so cuts only where they can’t be seen.
unofficialsherlockian asked: You didn't fail, you just have to do better the next time you go for recovery. Hang in there
Recovery is a heartless bitch
I gave in
I purged my favorite food and cut myself for the first time in months I can’t help but want to die. I failed myself, not only myself but everyone who was proud of me for taking on recovery.
Oh my god hold the guacamole I’m buying myself a laptop I deserve it. I’ll probably make a new blog too I feel like I’m talking to myself 90% of the time on here.
I got an hour of sleep
Then Megan came home and scared the shit out of me lol. I can’t stand waking up in someones house from babysitting it always scares the shit out of me. anyways I get a vacation of sorts out of this since I’m going to Texas to with them to watch her kid. Get to stay at the beach for a while woohoo. I like babysitting over a regular job kids are so much simpler, when their not trying to stab me. That happened, yes that happened you know those fucking knives went up on the tallest shelf right after that lol.
I’m feeling like a small raft lost at sea right now
Of course there would be a school for that in my hometown but not in this stupid fucking state I moved to. I’m sincerely disappointed and I feel like my raft is sinking to the bottom of the ocean. why is it that every time I find something I’d really love to do there’s no chance in hell it will ever happen? Never mind don’t answer that, I just don’t deserve happiness.